I love design and everything it entails from the simplistic geometry and subtle public advertising to the complex patterns and dense artworks.
However I feel it is not going to make me happy in the future. It’s not going to get me anywhere. I will feel unfulfilled if I continue along this path, constantly chasing my own tail through the design stresses. When designing for freelance projects I almost feel nothing towards the industry. It used to be so uplifting, but now I sit and wonder whether it was ever what I REALLY wanted to do.
That is when I look back to being in high school and striving to get into the medical field and to become what I had wanted to become since I started my teens. Midwifery has always been an interest of mine, the development of the beginning of a human life is simply amazing and intriguing thing. I want to be apart of bringing these new lives into the world safely, its rewarding yet hectic but in the end it is all worth it. The stability of working within this sector is also appealing, as I believe I would be happy to live through such a career for the rest of my life.
For now I’m going to leave this place for a year and when I return I’ll be ready to return and figure out what exactly I need to do to make what I want to do a possibility.
Yes I’ve made mistakes in my career path, already, and I’m currently regretting doing a HND at college, however graphic design still remains an interest. I hope I can continue along the both; design for enjoyment and midwifery for work but also enjoyment in order to be a all round better person not only for myself, but my for mental and physical being, my future and my future family.
(If anyone is able to give me a little bit of advice about midwifery courses etc that would be greatly appreciated, thank you.)