push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.
2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.
3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.
4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.
5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.
6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.
7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.
8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.
9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.
10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.
11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.
12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.
14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.
15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.
16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.
I love design and everything it entails from the simplistic geometry and subtle public advertising to the complex patterns and dense artworks.
However I feel it is not going to make me happy in the future. It’s not going to get me anywhere. I will feel unfulfilled if I continue along this path, constantly chasing my own tail through the design stresses. When designing for freelance projects I almost feel nothing towards the industry. It used to be so uplifting, but now I sit and wonder whether it was ever what I REALLY wanted to do.
That is when I look back to being in high school and striving to get into the medical field and to become what I had wanted to become since I started my teens. Midwifery has always been an interest of mine, the development of the beginning of a human life is simply amazing and intriguing thing. I want to be apart of bringing these new lives into the world safely, its rewarding yet hectic but in the end it is all worth it. The stability of working within this sector is also appealing, as I believe I would be happy to live through such a career for the rest of my life.
For now I’m going to leave this place for a year and when I return I’ll be ready to return and figure out what exactly I need to do to make what I want to do a possibility.
Yes I’ve made mistakes in my career path, already, and I’m currently regretting doing a HND at college, however graphic design still remains an interest. I hope I can continue along the both; design for enjoyment and midwifery for work but also enjoyment in order to be a all round better person not only for myself, but my for mental and physical being, my future and my future family.
(If anyone is able to give me a little bit of advice about midwifery courses etc that would be greatly appreciated, thank you.)
hey what if someone invented a machine that allowed women to transfer their pregnancies to men and then the government passed a law that if a woman didn’t want to have a baby the biological father was required to carry it how fast do you think birth control would stop being an issue
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